Monday, November 15, 2010

When my mother passed away

I was only 3 years old when my mother passed away in a car accident.  The only memory I have of her is from that awful day.  She was going to travel by car from the little town we  used to live  in to the nearest city.  I was crying a lot because I wanted to go with her. The only reason I calmed down is because she told me that she will bring me a beautiful doll from her trip.  I remember that after that, I stayed happy and calm.  Later, in the afternoon, it was like 2 or 3 p.m. when there was a lot of noises; my family and friends were crying in the house.  I didn't understand what was happening;  then, I was laying down on a little bed with a doll in my arms when I saw two men holding the body of my mother.  
Her body was completely destroyed and covered in blood. Then, another person, held me up in a hurry and took me out of the room. I can not even describe the terrible impression I suffered when I saw my mother  like that.  It was the most horrifying experience I've ever had in my whole life.  I was still a little girl, I needed my Mommy with me. 

Due to this terrible event in  my life,  I started suffering from nightmares.  Almost every night, I would  wake up  crying and scared because I couldn't take away her bloody image off my mind and my heart.
Only God knows how much I've suffered all of my life because I  have missed my mother so much.  He is the only one who knows how many times I have cried, blaming him for taken my mother away  from me, but finally, one beautiful and  divine day, He had mercy on me.

To be continued......................